Nope, It's not contagious

So... I've been sick this week....  Tuesday, I felt like I had the weight of the world on my chest... I stayed home that day, but it was because I thought my depression was in full attack.  And I had the most wonderful sleep of all time - considering I was awake that day maybe a total of 5 hours.

So come Wednesday, I went to work completely rested, but couldn't stop sneezing, coughing, sniffling. I then though "Wow, maybe I was sick yesterday".  Then comes Thursday...

Thursday, I have a dry cough, my chest feels like an elephant is sitting on it. Every time I cough, I feel like my ribs are going to break and I can't take complete breaths.  What to you mean by that, you may be asking??? Well, I couldn't talk without having to take many controlled pauses for catching my breath.  And every time I try to take a real breath I have to cough because I just can't do it.So I decide to go Urgent Care (because the non permanent employees don't have insurance). So I'm getting my check-up and am worried that I have bronchitis or pneumonia...

Nope, I was having an asthma attack... An all day Asthma Attack!  Oh my gosh!  How awful is that!  Thank goodness I have the smarts to realize that to panic and get excited about not being able to breathe would only make it worse.  So a shot of steroids and a 10 minutes nebulizer session later, I'm able to breathe again.  It has never felt soooo good to breathy - EVER!

Now, everything is loosening up,  I'm getting to use my albuterol and I'm just pooped, but at least I'm not contagious.

p.s. I inquired why the sniffing, sneezing and coughing.... apparently I also have allergies... 45 yrs old and didn't know I have allergies.  Oy Vey!

It's all in how you carry it out...

I constantly have conversations in my head...  The problem is... my face also reflects the conversations.  This is only a problem when you forget you are in public and realize that somebody may have seen you.

Weight Loss

I like it, but I’m in between sizes.  I can either wear clothes that are way too tight for me or are falling off me.  See… my body shape is a wide.  Even if I lose weight, I’ve got curves so I’m always going to be a wide/curvaceous… But wide is only made in certain sizes and I’ve shrunken out of those sizes now.  So…. What to do??? Wear the next size down and have disgusting muffin top or wear the size that I just grew out of and look I don’t know how to dress my body?