Monday, October 31, 2011

Time to Face the Facts

I'm FAT!  If you compare me to all my friends (and I mean all of them) I'm sure I'm actually average, but by BMI standards, I'm the "O" word - Obese.  I've done Lindora (lost about 10 lbs and then gained them all back).  Weight Watchers (That worked until it didn't).  Atkins (the weight came off nicely and then plateaued - infact I never got off the plateau until I stopped Atkins and then I gained it all back, plus some).  Counting Calories and eating healthy.  AND I've exercised.  I've actually had two trainers.  I didn't lose very much weight with the first one, but... i did strengthen my endurance.  I lost about 15 lbs with the 2nd one.  He worked my butt off twice a week and I'd go in and exercise another 2-3 times a week.  This was also when I watched my calories. I managed to lose only 15 lbs in about 3-4 mos and have now gained it all back.  Now, I just wallow in self-pity.  I exercise periodically (cough, cough) I don't overeat, but I'm also eating a lot of fast or easy food.  There's a reason for that, but I'll explain that on another entry.  I can't really start "eating healthy" for anywhere between a week to two months. (again, I'll explain on another entry), but I pledge to cut out soda (I'm going to die... I know I will) and fast food.  I'll still eat quick food, but not fast food. 

This is what I hope to fix by becoming either "average or smaller than average."
*shave off some weight
*build muscle
*lose my asthma
*lower my cholesterol levels
*my feet will stop hurting
*maybe - just maybe - find my ankles again.

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